Preparing My Heart to Worship

“But now that you have come to know God, or rather to be known by God, how is it that you turn back again to the weak and worthless elemental things to which you desire to be enslaved all over again?” Galatians 4:9

“If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. Let us not become boastful, challenging one another, envying one another.” Galatians 5:25-26

“And let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we shall reap if we do not grow weary. So then, while we have opportunity, let us do good to all men, and especially to those who are of the household of the faith.” Galatians 6: 9-10

I woke up this morning with these thoughts flooding my head: I have a heart that by nature desires to worship anything but Jesus and I am defined more by my position in and desire to produce the best possible family than I am by the gospel. I have made an idol out of my family. I worship my family.

I’m wrestling with that now – knowing that I am still called to serve my family, knowing that desiring their best good is not a bad goal, but knowing that they are seeing me make them a priority over any kind of relationship with the living God. I count my homeschooling as a check on my good things chart. I count my staying home with them as another. I count giving up pretty much everything else for their sakes as my way to winning God’s good graces.

When will I learn that nothing, nothing, nothing else matters except the cross of Christ. His forgiveness of sins. His salvation for men, women, boys, girls.