I've been on a teeter-totter this past week of both ends of the emotional/competent spectrum and I don't do the mood swing thing very well. No ma'am.
When I get stuck in this range of craziness, it seems I can't move past it; it's as though I'll never again move past it. Shut down, close the shades, stay in jammies, stay in bed.
The problem with this, though, is where my focus is: on me. Seems the only way to move past me is to just keep moving. It's hard to shut down and pull the covers over my head when I know I'm the one responsible for four girls' educations (not to mention their general well-being altogether). I can sleep until 8 on occasion (like today), but I can't stay in bed and read all day….eventually someone has to make lunch.
It also seems the only other way to move past me is to default to Lamentations 3:22-23: "Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.They are new every morning;great is your faithfulness."
Thanks for that, God. Now, some sleep. And tomorrow we begin again.
Prayers going up for you from NC. Been there. Persevere. Have hope. Listen for the small, still voice of God. Blessings and sleep well. B.
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Oh, that song took me WAY back. I used to sing that to my colicky firstborn and it would calm him down. He’s 17 now and he just pulled into the driveway after attending our church’s men’s Bible study. Sniff…sniff.
Here’s praying you begin again well in the morning. Time really does fly. Enjoy each day with your girls.
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Thanks, Belinda and Anne. I think we’re about to the end of this emotional wave. Might not hit shore until Monday, but it’s coming. 🙂
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